-Av's Bloggy v7-
11/03/05: last day of school before march break, fun. here i am typing this up in my extremely boring integrated tech class where we're supposed to build spaghetti bridges with glue.. i don't like that, i chose this integrated tech class for one thing, computers. spaghetti doesn't have anything to do with computers, it bores me. and what also bores me is that we need a to scale drawings of our spaghetti bridge before building it, and i really, really hate rulers. they also tend to go diagonally, and then i have to erase the line and re-draw it. so, i suspect that all rulers in this world is evil.
and onto something completely random, kathy is extremely cute.
10/03/05: don't you just hate it when you're at school and all of the sudden you hear "WILL, YOUR COUSIN'S HOT!"? really, it gets annoying after a while. i don't like to know that my cousin is in some of my friend's fantasies..
09/03/05: hmm.. time to actually think, and write down what i think. thought number one. i think i've been getting more stupid for the last little bit. somehow, being more social with people in my neighbourhood(sp?)/school has had a large impact on my life. my marks have been going downhill ever since i started to get more friends, basically crushed. but, has this been because i've been starting to get what laughing is like? i started to get social, started to laugh, and start talking to people, so probably i gained some courage by being more social. but, i've also been more idiotic.
This could be because i'm being friends with some of the wrong people, but i don't really think that's the problem. this is because some of my friends actually teach me new things and vice versa, but sometimes it's just different. sometimes some of my friends are just idiots, but they get higher marks than me. i think it's probably these people that are making my marks plummet. being around these people, i get their habit of acting like a complete idiot, not doing my work, and not studying for tests. although i don't think it really has been like me to do not slack off for basically everything, but these people are probably building on that bad habit of mine.
i think, that if i just seperate myself from them a little bit, i can regain part of my old self, which was more intelligent, but was also more stiff than the me nowadays. but, i feel that the old me had lot's of potential, which i lost. i think i took the wrong route and got lost somewhere. i feel.. stupid..
so, i think it would be better attending lisgar collegiate institute, instead of merivale high school. it is supposed to be the best school in ottawa, so the fierce competition there will probably make me want to drive faster and achieve more than i am currently. but, i only know two people attending that school, so i most likely will turn back to my old quiet, but intelligent, self.
so, instead of being mad at being transfered to lisgar collegiate institute now, i'm pretty happy. because i would rather have a happy future than being happy now but being an idiot in the future...
however, the above doesn't really involve people i know online, since all of you are smart people and are positive influences.
also, i feel as if i've been getting less in touch with people i met online, and don't want to just cut off my relationship with any of them.
05/03/05:
click to see what i have so far, pretty crappy but i'll build on it when i feel like it. also, it'll probably be a centered like
this, which is my most recent layout.. well, kumon time, blah.
04/03/05: i'm lazy. the end.
01/03/05: okay, i have a brief imagination at how my next layout is going to be. and, it's going to be hand drawn :O so prepare for the black and white crappiness, not anytime soon though
23/02/05: laziness. again. need pic for new layout. and, star wars: knights of the old republic II: the sith lords, is an extremely great game. so i'm hooked onto it for now, while also trying to be better in school that is...
21/02/05: ah, too lazy to do the red thingy. i'll do some entry sometime tomorrow or the day after when i have time.
14/02/05: since it's valentines day, there shall be lots of red sometime soon.
08/02/05: gah. my internet has been down for the last.. three or four days? horrid times, since i had nothing to do except for re-reading almost *all* of my manga, which is approximately... eight gigs? plus, a lot of other stuff happened other than some lazy guy reading his manga, so i'll probably have some long posts today, and the next few days since i most likely forgot what i did..
anyways, friday.. that day, i panicked and freaked out because i didn't finish my chinese homework, which was about ten pages of pure questions on a giant story. but being the procrastinator i am, i was being lazy and just did my stuff like usualy, until i noticed the time was eleven pm. so, i just called my friend and started to yell like crazy for five minutes before realizing how much of a lunatic i was. then, i started yelling again, attempting to word "give me the answers to the questions", but instead got a billion other words out in a very, very loud voice. anyways, then i found out we didn't have saturday school.. why? chinese new years holiday. and, why didn't i know? because i skipped the week before because of exams, so i missed out on a lot.
so, realizing this, i was all happy. after my friend told me about the no school thing, he asked if i wanted to go paintballing with him. i agreed, because i never went paintballing before and my friend keeps making it seem so fun, so the time to go there was at nine in the morning. so, then that night i got ready and all that stuff which i thought i had to prepare to go paintballing.
and so, the next morning, i awoke, looked at the clock, then went back to bed. after attempting to close my eyes, i felt that i couldn't because it seemed like i had a good night's sleep, which seemed really wrong because i should've only had six hours of sleep. so then, i opened my eyes and looked at the clock. guess what i saw? it read "eleven pm", and i knew my friend was going to yell at me. and guess what? thirty minutes after i woke up, i receive a call, and the first thing that pops up in my head is "shit". but surprisingly, the guy was forgiving and didn't spaz, and actually was pretty nice. so then, we were going to go to badminton on sunday. yay.
and oh yeah, the rest that happened on saturday. well, tieferrow came over, and we got bored fast because my brother had his girlfriend over in the basement. so we were just lounging around in my room, with the crappy computer.
so, we just downloaded some crappy games and got bored. so bored that tieferrow was being an idiot, and kept pretending to search up vulgar words on google, like "porn" and "hentai". which, i then immediately smacked him on the head and didn't allow him to search it at all. and then afterwards, he left because there was absolutely nothing to do. and then that day just ended...
and so i wake up on sunday, and go to badminton at the normal time. thing is, i went with two of my friends, but one of my other friends didn't come, which sucked because he was equivelant(sp?) to my level of badminton. the other two friends were lower, one was not that much worse, but the other was just.. how do i say? horrible. yeah, that's the word i was looking for. and so, four hours at badminton just seemed to pass by, and then i got home. and also, forgot to mention before, but my internet was down starting saturday.
continuing my story, after i got home, i took a shower, watching television for a while and then went to sleep for two hours. upon waking up, i read tons and tons of manga, which i already read almost two times already.
and so, that leads to monday, which was pretty boring and i doubt there's anything i should talk about, and then today, which there is also nothing to talk about. and also, desperation v2 should be up soon, just need to script it when i'm not lazy. plus,
kingdomRO, which is a server a friend's hosting, and i'm a GM on it. i'm also working on a layout for that, which should be up soon. note: there isn't anything on the website yet, website is just for reference. and oh yeah, also working on a layout for french, which is supposed to be "make a website with personal information about yourself and get extra marks". or, i could just not do a layout and make a half decent webpage and still get some good marks.
so, that should be all for now. and now i have to do my homework, so done blogging i suppose.
01/02/05: and, i slept in this morning and what happened? my mom went over to lisgar and filled in the transfer form. do i get to have any decisions around the house?
31/01/05: gah. my mom just told me that she's going to drag me to lisgar tomorrow morning to transfer to lisgar next year. so.. wtf? i was actually looking forward to going to merivale again. and, it takes soo long to travel to lisgar and back to my house, it's almost an hour to get from the school to my house, or from my house to the school. gah! i am really, really angry right now >>
29/01/05: okay, i'm sick and tired of studying for today, so i'll just write up an entry right here for a while.
good news, my computer works again. yay. bad news, my ram messed up. a good 512 ddr ram down the drain, really bad news. boo. well, at least i got my files back, right? which means, i should back up all my stuff just in case my other stick of ram decides to die out. and, when i was checking what i had on my computer using picasa, i found my brother's porn folder.. seriously, wtf? the folder is frigging thirty gigs and i never noticed before, and the folder was named "hidden" too, and i never thought anything suspicious of it.
so, getting that out of my head, i state that my voice sucks! well, to be more specific, my singing, but ah well. when i heard a recording of what some may call "singing", i was horrified, struck in awe. i sounded soo crappy, that i felt like slapping myself, but then didn't really want to because i don't want to get hurt.. *slaps self for being such a pansy*
anyways.. i found the picture for my new layout, a picture of miyavi. and the colour scheme is.. WHITE. yes, white. black doesn't really show on my computer, so i didn't really want a dark layout. plus, the dark layouts don't really appear correctly on one of my monitors. it's super dark, so i can barely see anything and i have to highlight what i want to read in order to see the text a teeny little bit. so yeah, white. still under the "desperation" name too. completely ditched the other plan i had, seemed pretty gay afterwards.
on another thought, i think studying is evil. yes, EVIL. i completely despise it. i had to go to such lengths as to lock myself in my brother's room (he moved out) with my geography textbook, one hundred lined pieces of paper, two pens, a pencil, a eraser, a sharpener, and some kleenex. i stayed in there for six hours! i came out.. dead? yeah, i think i came out dead. the outcome of what happened was fifty pieces of paper filled with what was going to be on the exam, and ten sheets of paper of my drawings. and what have i learned..? barely anything. what i think? i can't study for squat. and the exam is on the day after tomorrow too!!
28/01/05: okay, uhh.. 75% chance that i'm going to merivale, where all my friends are. for some reason, i don't really like that, i was looking forward to going to lisgar and getting a better education. because now, if i'm going to merivale, i will be hindered, because of the people around me. i've learned less during the last several years, because of the people i hung out with, and that's not good. because my average has dropped by ten, so, my average is 78 now which is horrendous.
and in other news, i'm done with three exams, and studying for my last exam, which is on monday. the exam is on the subject i hate most, geography.. damnit, i'm skipping chinese school to study for it too, since i hate it so much.
also, today my good computer has been going crazy. it's been saying that windows hasn't been installed into the computer, which is a pretty big "WTF?!" for me. why? i have over fifty gigs of material on that. twelve gigs in manga, five gigs of music, ten gigs on anime, and a lot of other stuff i never backed up. also, all my singing that i recorded was also on that computer, so down the drain those songs go, which is bad because i don't feel like singing anymore.
also, recently, i downloaded something called konfabulator, which was made for the mac, but has recently been ported to the pc. i've always wanted this program, and now i got it, and it's pretty damn cool. it's like having things called "widgets" on your screen, which you can sort of say is a program, but you can either download, or make some "widgets" yourself, which are the icon-like programs on your screen. you can have reminders, the time, search engines, cpu usage, weather, and a lot of other cool stuff. you can also make widgets to monitor a game server, to check whether or not it's up or not, so you know if a game server is up even when you haven't opened the game yet. so basically, it's pretty damn cool. another thing that's cool is ragnarok battle offline, extremely fun. thing is, it's only in japanese, and it was on my other computer that's messed, so i can't play it anymore.
aaand.. i think i rambled enough for now.. also, i'm trying to find another picture to find for another layout. no luck so far though, so.. damnit.
16/01/05:
castle or
friends.
14/01/05: i can't believe how stupid my mom is. seriously, just because i'm on the computer *all* night doesn't mean i'm playing video games. maybe i'm away all night because... i have something due in the morning and i need to work on it..? and then the next day i'm on my computer waiting for my friend to go on so i can check what chinese school homework we have, but while waiting i'm finishing up some geography project that's due on tuesday. so, guess what? my mom goes into "super yelling mode and make no sense whatsoever because she's a fucking bitch" mode, or whatever you want to call it. and thens she just rambles on about bullcrap like how my grades are lower than my brother's. whoopity-freaking-doo, my brother's got 93 average, how the hell am i supposed to compare with those marks? and she also keeps saying that when my brothers were my age, they weren't on the computer as much as me. well, news flash! it's a new generation of people, and what impact does computers have on peoples lives? everything. so stick your head out of your frigging black boxed in cavern, and open your eyes, because we're living in the twenty-first century, not the frigging feudal ages.
10/01/05: kagrra, presentation as my music isu project :O too bad the school at the computer had crappy powerpoint 2000 so all the animations were messed >> if they had powerpoint xp the "guy or girl" game would've went perfectly! and everyone would be completely freaked out, as if they weren't already
06/01/05: :O never run when there's snow and ice on the floor! you don't want to end up like me, with a gargantuous (well, maybe not that big) cut right underneath my kneecap hindering my movements. so, i can barely walk and stand, and i *can't* run whatsoever. this then concludes to me not being able to do anything while playing badminton on saturday.. T.T also, finals in two weeks :O *dies*
01/01/05: yay, a new year. so, now let's see what were my favourite/least favourite moments or time frames of '04 and what i want to do for '05, okay? favourite moments would probably be badminton christmas camp, and least favourite moment would be... first piano concert i played at, i guess, since i did so horrible in it. and.. what i want to do in the year '05 is to get better in badminton so i can either get first or second in a tournament :D
30/12/04: umm.. wow. i haven't been on the computer whatsoever for for days and it felt like an eternity. the reasons? first, my brother was an idiot and kept staying on the computer everytime i was in my house. and second, badminton christmas camp. thirty-five hours of almost non-stop badminton drills, games. plus, there's the warm-up's and breaks too. but the thing was that the camp was sort of mixed. so it had around ten kids (ages 5-12) and only five tall people (14-18?). sadly, i was the youngest tall person, but there was this girl that was a month older than me. i guess the camp was fun, got to learn new things and meet some pretty nice people. but... it just sucks how it's only five days. the holidays should've been extendedm so there would have been more days to the camp. then, that would be better, since people could have known each other more, and made friend's with everyone that was part of the camp..? and that would have just been terrific, because i wanted to get to know some girl named kathy (month older than me) more. why? maybe i like her, but too late now to do anything... bah
26/12/04: merry belated christmas everyone
--the rest of this entry was deleted. why? i was a bit psychotic that day.
09/12/04: site is now hosted on eccentrix.com, which is because freewebs decided to not let me log in anymore so i can edit anything, so this will have to suffice. also, i got an idea of having an people be able to access the site in two different ways. the main page will link to two different layouts of opposite genres. this layout will be the "dark" layout, which brings the name "desperation" into play which means to give up on all meaning. the other layout, which will be the "light" layout, will be named "devotion" which if you don't notice is basically the opposite of desperation, except i will use it as "devoted to love"... and don't ask why.
22/11/04: Uploaded the "Desperation" layout, hope you guys like it. and, i'm a bit lazy and don't feel like deleting the earlier entries. plus, there will be some things i want to touch up on so
there may be some things being edited during the next while. on another note, i'm a bit saddened by my report card, geography messed up my mark so badly >< which results in me hiding my report card
from my parents for a little while so they won't go psycho on me.. and i'll have a button made sometime soon too
19/11/04: Well, i guess i didn't rant in a while. and i'm at school in english course (which is extremely boring and easy) doing a powerpoint presentation. and, i'm done what i'm supposed to do so
i guess i'm just going to rant for a while.
First, i have my "desperation" layout all done, just too lazy to actually load it up and swap everything over...
Secondly, my grades are dropping, so i guess i won't be on the computer as much as i used to a while ago (and another reason why i didn't rant and am ranting at school). and, my networking at home
is seriously messed up. when one computer is open, and another computer is opened, the new computer opened disconnects the other computers from the internet, thus only one person can be on the net
at a time at my house, which sucks. because all of the sudden, my older brother became a serious computer hog and keeps kicking me off whenever i'm doing something.
continue my rant at home.. teacher's coming around
--continued--
almost got found out at the computer lab today, which pretty much sucked because i was almost done the rant too.. well, anyways.. contuing(sp?) my rant.
my brother keeps kicking me off, so i can't really do that much on the computer. so umm.. yeah.. i'm on sometimes, but not usually on when everyone else is on, which bugs me too. and whenever i'm
at school, my brother's usually in university having courses, and then when i come home, he's already home on the computer..
and that's the reason why i'm not on the computer that much...
3/11/04: note to all badminton players who bitch. don't bitch, seriously. it just annoys everyone, and learn how to count too. if it's ten all, and me and my partner gets seven points. no, it's not
fourteen to ten, that just means your a moron. so learn how to count, and learn how to be quiet, or just don't play at all. you're not required to play this sport in after school hours, and you're
not wanted if you don't change your attitude.
on a better subject, the "desperation" layout is almost done, and the "nation take our kids to work day" was extremely fun.
29/10/04: erm.. piano.. yeah.. have to memorize a page long sheet, when i'm having trouble just playing it with both hands at the correct tempo. also added another music link, this time with
baroque - gariron
and oh yeah, im making a new layout under the site name of "Desperation" avraels blog just seems a bit to... umm.. un-interesting for me, and probably for other people as well
28/10/04:
OkazuRO If you want to play a ro server, play on that one. it's not really that good yet, but there's me in
it, as a gm. weee. rates are umm.. i forgot, but it's on the main page. also, my class, and another class, is having a field trip tomorrow. and guess what, it's hiking around the town, so umm.. my
shoes are going to be muddy.
21/10/04: click on the music link on the left column, it's a good song. and too lazy to upload more songs, that one song took a looong time to upload.
20/10/04: umm.. band was weird this morning, since the band teacher moved all the clarinets around, so some people who played first now, are are playing third, etc. etc. luckily i'm still in the
same seat, and is still using the same band music as before. and umm.. i don't know the person sitting beside me (she's in grade 10)... also, got negima volumes two and three today :D
16/10/04: im awake at 11:17 PM, and i told my friends i would go to them to play badminton tomorrow at 8.. which means i probably have to wake up at 7 to get ready, and i really, really need to get
some sleep. seriously, my eyes have been red for the last week or so, and i can never sleep after 11:30 for some reason, and that's really ticking me off. on the other hand, i don't think i have
any or not that much homework over the weekend, just several questions in math, and that probably is it.
hmm.. i wonder if anyone actually reads this
11/10/04: well.. thanksgiving sure is fun, even though i didn't have any turkey whatsoever. instead, i had to cut up a chicken that was still thawing for the first time, now isn't that fun? and
yes, indeed it is fun. extremely fun.
on the other hand, i have to do a map for homework. now you might think this is for geo, but wait. it's not for geo, so you're probably wondering right now.
"if it's not for geo, then what else can it be for? art?" well, no, not exactly. it's for english, now that's just weird isn't it? having to do a map for geo, and not only one map. but two maps to
be more excactly, now isn't that fun. and plus, it also has to be coloured in, and it's in an enlarged piece of paper, so it'll take a longer time to colour in. also, i have no other extra copies
of the enlarged typed of paper, so if i screw up now, it's all over for. either that, or i can do it all over on the back of the paper, but that sure isn't good, plus, it'll take a while to do
everything over again.
and... i might take a pic of my desktop, and my actual desktop in real life, just to show how messy i am at the moment. and that is extremely messy, except the thing is,
i don't really go on the computer im on that much, and i never use this desktop for work. except now im doing the map, and i have no other place to do the map. so i had to just shove some stuff out
of the way...
...damn, that was a long entry. i should've tooken the time to just finish up my map.
my apologies to the people with a monitor resolution of 1280x1024 or higher. and also
another apology for people with their monitor settings on bright. my layout will be more *ugly* since my layout is so dark, and i can't make out some things that look the same colour. i shall, in
due time (if i have any time actually), make another layout.. mainly because i feel bored.
04/10/04: to be more precise, it's 9:13 PM... guess what i found out in class today? my english project wasn't due today.. it was due tomorrow! booo! and instead, we had a test today...
04/10/04: to be more precise about the time, it's currently 3:05 AM.... frigging english project, i'll only have about four hours of sleep today..
30/09/04: i just finished my five hundred word short story, and i thought i was done all my homework. but, now i find out i didn't colour in my geo project, and it's 10:51pm at night. plus, i have
to wake up at 6:30am tomorrow for band, so... i have to say im royally screwed... :P
28/09/04: changed my layout to halloween edition, and.. no homework today!!
26/09/04: oh crap.. i cant find the worksheet for the homework i have to doo!!
/end anger
/start harvest moon :D
25/09/04: waaahhh... i've been dead for the last two weeks, all i did was; 1. chat with friends, 2. read manga, 3. play harvest moon for my gba.... im bored, and off i go to play harvest moon once
again
19/09/04: rescue me, ive been shot by the plentiful manga volumes that i want to buy... bring money
14/09/04: homeworks done! w00t. gotta do a play in english... and since i'm the only guy in the group, i have to be the one that gets married, which just ticks me off.. since there's the whole
"proposal" thingy thats also going into play.. and i edited some pics
13/09/04: too much homework, no time to play games, but... managed some time to read manga XD... as long as i have some manga to read, im happy..
12/09/04: pikmin 2 is... addictive.... especially when you win ninety percent of the time in two player mode, then it's even *more* fun and addictive. and now i gotta do my homework..
11/09/04: yay, finally got one of these types of sites.. which i wanted for a looong time, except i didn't know how..
but now i do!
Muahahahahahah!!!!
*cough* *cough* *chokes*
