twenty-one

in less than a month
I'll lose myself.
who I was, who I am,
I'll lose my childhood.
in less than a month,
I'll run away from all
this time alone,
I'll forget my past and
my future.
I'll lose my innocence, my
vivacity, my thirst for
what I've been aiming for all along.
in less than a month
I'll finally give in
to the mundane
to mediocrity
to life.
I'll give in to hope
to love
to silence
to sacrifice.
in less than a month
I'll lose myself
and be
someone else.

November 9, 2004