all she sees is what's inside

I am so beautiful.
I am tall, and tanned,
with hair reaching down
to my knees.
I am so beautiful,
I am so thin and fit
and everyone wants
to be me.
I am so beautiful
with vibrant brown eyes
and smooth skin.
full, pouty lips pursed
in a kiss.
I am so beautiful
with bright red blood
trickling down
my slender back.
I am cut and raped
with tear strained cheeks
and bloodshot eyes.
I am so beautiful
with needles protruding
and razorblades incising
I am scraped, sore,
tired, foam from my
mouth and a belly full of
vomit.
I am so, so beautiful.

February 24, 2004