07/30/04
Friday, what a day. It’s not quite Saturday, but its close enough anyway. Don’t forget to drop me a note, so I don’t forget when it’s Saturday. I have big plans, playing with sand, in a creek on the edge of the ocean.

07/29/04
Um, yea. What he said. “Who me?” No, not you. “oh.” ‘me’ yes, you. “I thought you were talking about me?” Nope, I was talking about him. ‘Well, what were you saying’ How you like to eat banana & mayonnaise sandwiches. ‘Oh yea, I love them’ “What do you like about it?” ‘Just try it, you’ll see.’ “I doubt I will see, since I’m blind.” You knew what he meant. “Of course I did, I was just being sarcastic.” ‘You know I hate sarcasm.’ “I didn’t know.” Now you do. ‘Yea.’ “Yea?” Whatever.

07/28/04
Lost in a sea of happiness.

07/27/04
Work. A lot of work. Tons of work. Useless work. Workless days. Useless hours. Days of useless work. Tons of useless days full of workless hours covered in uselessness.

07/26/04
Puppies running on the beach, in search of crabs to eat. A lost litter, awaiting the arrival of a mom who will never come home. In search of food, the puppies run on, tired….hungry, desperate. But most of the crabs are dead, on the plates of hungry tourists, so the puppies slowly starve; full of water and the carcasses of washed-up jellyfish.

07/23/04
Apples and strawberries, ground up, juices extracted…mixed with water. We are all the same, made of juices, our protective coatings of skin and ideologies hide our true nature. Inside we are filled with pride, which leads us to develop our many lies and misconceptions.

07/22/04
Transfixed. Still. Alone. Sitting with the ancient trees of a forgotten time. Ghosts fly overhead, soaring through the dark sky that stretches into eternity. Screaming inside, they smile down at me, alone in the wilderness of secrets.

07/21/04
Marshmallows coated in sugar, roasting over an open flame. Wood Cracking, fire dancing, whiteness bubbling, images flashing…thru my mind, tired mind. Mind of a Martian. Alien’s walking thru the snow, dazzling flakes falling rather slow. Towards the fire and into the flames, into the darkness that we all know. Once upon a time we walked hand it hand, until we started calling them God’s, then they left us far behind, and hid in the shadows of the divine.

07/20/04
The meaning of life is to come to the realization that you are who you are, not who you think you are. Many people think they are something they are not, when in reality, we are all just humans searching for happiness amongst the hardships of life. Sure for some, who have the luxury to care about these things, it is all fun and games. But there are millions of people on this planet who have barely enough food to survive. Imagine living your life with no electricity and just barely enough food to survive. Imagine what it would be like if you had so little food that there was only enough for you, and you had to watch your child starve to death. I wonder who these people think they are? I wonder what they see when they stare into their soul and wonder about the pointfullness of their lives? Do they see a God in there? Do they believe in anything but hardship? Do they realize that they are not who they dream they are, or do they even have dreams? I know a lot of people, here in America at least; think they are some sort of bad ass. But in reality, they are just like these starving people, only they are full. Full of food, and full of shit.

07/19/04
Hot Dogs are tasty, it’s a shame my son can’t eat them, he would love them. He eats the hell out of Tofu Dogs, which are rather gross I would say, having grown up on Hot Dogs. That’s strange that my son will probably think that Hot Dogs taste strange, but it is better because he probably won’t have to worry about colon cancer. Bastards….walking thru the streets, screaming at the moon as it cruises through the sky in a slow arc above the heads of the lost sheep of Atlantis.

07/16/04
tHe angEls danced around, smiLing down at the partakers as they scavenged thru the wind in an endLess array of time conSuming patterns. damnation was at hand, as the invisible bUgs surrounded the bodies of the strangers, awaiting the struggles of an eternal fight for the deviation of endless rhythms. they throw Caution in the wind, awaiting a Kite of timelessnesS.

07/15/04
Hum. Today is another day, filled of sunny moments and dark laughs. The sun shining down upon your head ceases to exit when the eternal sunshine of darkness fills your souls with light. The darkness of light. A timid reminder of endless summers; filled of hummers coated in dirty air. The grass grew through the cracks, it grew and grew until the cracks were no more, and all of our society vanished under a web of broken sidewalks.

07/14/04
The time has come to realize the potential we as humans have from an evolutionary stand-point. The potential is amazing, as are we, as are our brains. Jesus was nothing but a prophet, a son of God just like the rest of us. He was trying to let us know our true potential as humans, to show us that we too can walk on water, heal people, and turn water to wine. He was trying to show us the power of the human mind. It’s a shame the confusion religion creates in its search to understand.

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